Sep. 25: In need of illumination
See, it’s really difficult. I could try to explain all the reasons why, but I think that’d be pretty futile.
What do you do when you’ve done all that is in your power, but the result is non-existent? And mulling over the things you haven’t done - what if that simply doesn’t make sense? Doesn’t make human sense, I mean?
I’m not trying to be selfish here, and I apologize if it may appear that way. But I just don’t believe in giving in and putting myself at another’s mercy when I know I’ll just be miserable. Have I tried? Yes. Did it work? No. Did I feel terrible? Yes.
Am I too impatient? Is that it? I’m still waiting, hopefully. Perhaps foolishly.
Compromise is important, but we run into problems when the terms aren’t balanced. What is obscuring our vision? Why can’t we see? What’s making it so hard?
It is a labour of love, indeed.