October 2011
1 post
Oct 1, 2011
I am proud of myself for being so strong. I am grateful for my family and friends, who care so much about me and my well-being. They are a real blessing.
I am an intelligent, beautiful, and caring individual. I am worthy. And I’m damn proud of it.
September 2011
5 posts
1 tag
Sep. 27
“Only connect! That was the whole of her sermon. Only connect the prose and the passion, and both will be exalted, and human love will be seen at its highest. Live in fragments no longer.” - E.M. Forster’s Howards End
Sep 26, 2011
Can’t concentrate. Have no appetite. A lingering sadness envelops me. Frustrated, confused, scared. Please, make it go away.
Sep. 25: In need of illumination
See, it’s really difficult. I could try to explain all the reasons why, but I think that’d be pretty futile.
What do you do when you’ve done all that is in your power, but the result is non-existent? And mulling over the things you haven’t done - what if that simply doesn’t make sense? Doesn’t make human sense, I mean?
I’m not trying to be selfish here,...
Sep. 18, 2011
Thank goodness for amazing friends. I know you’ll get me through the tough times <3
Has not been a terribly productive weekend in terms of getting school work done, but I’m working on it. Haven’t been sleeping very well lately, either. School is draining me out, but I’ve got to find it in myself to keep going. I wish there were more hours in a day so that I could get...
August 2011
3 posts
August 20th: Bilious filth
After trying to comfort myself and attempting to end the day on a positive note last night, I’m not feeling significantly better today. It sucks, I know. Went to sleep late last night, slept fitfully, and am currently feeling like I’ve had no sleep whatsoever. Ick.
I feel unsettled, and like something’s not quite right. And the worst part is, I have no idea how to go about...
It just makes human sense
Blah. That’s the only word to really describe how I’m feeling now. I don’t want to feel this way (who does?), but what can I do?
Between working, running errands, and being bombarded with emails from McMaster about TA orientations and mandatory grad student sessions (which subsequently make me worry about the impending roller-coaster of academia), I’ve hardly had any...
Wed. Aug. 3, 2011
We’re into August already? C’mon, now. Why must you be so fleeting, summer?
Anywho, these past few days have been good. On Monday, I skyped with a few of my friends, and I thoroughly enjoyed doing so. It felt incredibly wonderful catching up with them and seeing their faces, and to be filled in on the drama gracing their lives at the moment.
One of the friends I was skyping with...
July 2011
9 posts
Health and happiness
Was at the pharmacy the other day, and an elderly, overweight woman came in. She immediately announced that her doctor told her she would die if she didn’t lose weight. She also revealed that she’s smoking, and her doctor would like her to quit. As she was standing beside me, she began chatting to me about how difficult it is for her to eat healthily and how addicted she is to smoking....
The sun emerged, and it was a new day...
Feeling much better now. I find I suddenly have a renewed vigour for life. I’m so incredibly appreciative that I have my beloved friends and boyfriend to carry me through bad days like the one I was having over the weekend. I can’t explain how absolutely horrible I was feeling that day, but I felt so cathartic and relieved after having a good cry and talking to the ones who care about...
The glories of emotional turmoil
I was just vacuuming and suddenly began to tear up. I guess I’ve been a little emotionally unstable these days, or maybe I’m just PMSing. And having had long talks with friends this past week has really opened up a whole bunch of questions that I’ve been dreading to even address. But maybe they’re necessary. I just don’t want to have to deal with it right now. And I...
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Going to try my best to embrace everything that life has to offer. One of my worst fears in high school was that I would eventually become complacent, and sink into a level of mediocrity that I had always regarded with disdain. A love of learning, a sense of curiosity and wonder, are qualities that I wish to retain, always.
On a more random note, something I’ve always looked forward to was...
Hmph.
To my dear grandma: Please stop accusing me of having no appetite and losing weight, ‘cause neither of those are true. I know you care about me, but I’m getting really annoyed by these false accusations.
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Worrywart
As school looms, I find myself becoming more and more anxious. I suppose this is only natural, considering that I’ve been away from the academic world for over a year, and also that I’ll be starting something that will be completely new and foreign to me. I’ve been nagging myself to start preparing for grad school, but then again I’m not quite sure how I should go about...
